Right now I'm in a vale of tears.
I'm really feeling not good about myself: I'm over forty years old, have hardly ever had a relationship, probably now won't ever have a family either and try to talk myself out of this negative way of thinking that tells me that I'm just not loveable enough.
Today I learned that one more time when I seemed interested in someone they already have a family and are not available.
I just feel so bad about myself right now. And there is something nagging inside me asking me what the point of my life is.
I'm just hurting so much. Sometimes I like to think of myself as having another identity - someone who is popular, has relationships and is loved.
But eventually I always come back to my own reality.