Sorry for posting again but so frustrated and unwell. I went to my psychiatrist today and it just made me feel worse. He said I'm one of the most sickest patients he has ever seen because I cant be fixed by any of the medication or therapies and its gone on so long and I'm always going through torture. I am trying to tell them there is something wrong neurologically but even if there was they can't fix it. He thinks that i need to move away from my mother and try to be independent. He was getting very frustrated with me and basically said "what is wrong with you woman? You are 32 years old" He doesn't seem to understand i need support there for me 24/7 and I am scared being apart from my mother. I was nothing like this before I was sick.

Will give you example of what happened today...I dont sleep well even with the medications i take have very vivid dreams that wake me up. Got up at 4 am took 0.25mg diazepam fell back to sleep. Went to psych appointment. Went for coffee in town with mother, watched a movie. I do all this feeling literally brain damaged. I fell asleep for an hour so exhausted, wanted the pain in my brain to stop went i came home. When i do this i always wake up and it feels like my brain literally has this frying sensation and i wake up in complete panic rambling to my mother i want to die and am walking around the house like a jittering hunched over mess.

These are the medications i take if anyone knows about them:
Lamotrogine 200mg in morning
0.25 diazepam morning, noon and 5mg at night
100mg seroquel at night XR
1 tablet zolpiclone at night (7.5mg i think)