T,

When you called just now I was afraid you were going to cancel and I wouldinly have one session with you left. I'm afraid you would cancel while I don't want to see you. But I also want to see you. I'm weird. This is confusing.

But you wanted to re-schedule because you're daughter is ill and you want to be home with her tomorrow afternoon. Why not now? Why not the whole day tomorrow? In a few months you have two and you want to work full-time. And you boyfriend works too. Why keep having kids when you will dump them at day care every day?

But now I'll see you in a few hours. I'm not prepared. I haven't washed my hair yet. I don't know what to talk about. I feel low. I woke up with a headache and I still have it.
I still feel anger towards you. Disappointment.

I just don't know what to think about you. I wish I could read your mind so I would know how you honestly think about me and the "therapeutic relationship".