I have googled T but the only things I've found out: her LinkedIn profile, her profile pics of Facebook, who her boyfriend is and what he looks like, the name of her daugther.

I was already jealous from the first time I saw her. She's pretty and slim. Much of my jealousy is based on what I see of her in sessions. She's funny, smart, talks easily. And some of my jealousy is from what I think she has or how her life is; a boyfriend, a beautiful daughter, another daughter on the way, a diploma, a good job, a place of her own and I think she has friends, nice parents and siblings and in general she had a good life and is a happy and positive person.

I would like to know EVERYTHING about her. But that isn't possible. Like, I cant know when she lost her virginity and such things.
I think more personal things could make me even more jealous. Because then I can compare even more how much different our lives are.
But I think knowing about het interest (music, tv, books, sports, food, traveling), that might help me to lessen my ""obsesion" about her. Maybe I wouldn't wonder so much about her. Maybe I would see her more as I person like me and not only as my T and someone who's much better than me.

I am insecure about our relationship. But I am that with most people, even with my mother. That had a lot to do with me and my self-esteem and insecurities.

I have been interested in her interesses since I started seeing her. But this time in therapy it has been much more. And it had been like this since I started in Januari last year.

Maybe because of her leave I have finally shared this with her. I've only two sessions left and then I cant talk to her for MONTHS. The past year I could decide to tell her or ask her something ever week, but after next week I won't have that opportunity for months and months.