I had a session with T today and I'm not exactly sure what it was specifically that triggered this but I just feel really hopeless and kind of scared for some reason. I feel like everything is too much and I can't handle it. I have this weird feeling like something bad is going to happen and I don't know why.

It's times like these that I miss T and wish she was here so she could hug me or something but when I have a session with her I immediately put up this wall and feel angry when she keeps asking me questions and I want to push her away.

I'm sorry this is all over the place but I'm feeling very scattered.