Thanks everyone for your responses! I really appreciate that you guys said you don't think I'm bad for doing this. I think you're right that talking to my T would help with the guilt, and it would be good to figure out why I'm doing this. And that labeling this behavior doesn't help me. It's a good idea to bring it up hypothetically with my T. I do think it's a compulsion that I'm doing this, and I know I need to stop and definitely not escalate the behavior. It's also nice to know that so many other people get curious about their T's, and that they've driven past their homes too. And it's good to know this doesn't make me a stalker since I don't have malicious intents. Thanks again everyone!