I think that the common theme here is that you are not alone! All of us struggle with depression and most of us struggle with thoughts of self harm and SI. I get it! It is a hard path that we are called to walk, but we just have to keep moving one step at a time. Some days it is all I can do to crawl out of bed and keep coming to work each day. I have to remind myself , just like you, that I have a family that would be incredibly hurt if I gave in to the thoughts that are often so loud. So, I send you hugs, warm thoughts, and a listening ear. Keep fighting the good fight. it's worth it.