Hi T,

Today's session was... not that great. I was feeling low and tired and I didn't feel like talking. My mind was a bit numb/empty. And I really didn't felt like talking about things that are going to happen while you won't be there for support.

But the end if the session... You asked what I wanted to do for the last session. You said we could play a game. Or eat some pie because it is sort of a special occasion. We can do something totally different than we do in our usual sessions, because it's the last one. It's a temporarily goodbye.
I can decide what we do. I don't know what. It will feel weird for me. A few years ago we did some exposer therapy outside and it felt so strange to walk with you, my T, in a store. Like, I see you out of your natural habitat.

What do I want to do? I want you to say I'm your favorite client
I want a hug. I think. Now you're pregnant I don't feel comfortable to hug you. Though I don't know how I would feel when I would get a hug from normal you. Just once I want to know how it feels.

I want to feel comfortable and relax when I'm in session with you and you say something casual to me ( you sometimes do that at the beginning or end). I just cant do small talk. I hate that.