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Originally Posted by Elkino
I almost feel like not showing up for my next appointment this week. Although I know it wouldn't help me either. But I don't know how I could ever mention how I feel right now. And don't know how I can work with a T who doesn't really care either...
Sometimes T asked me to send her a message when something big was happening in my life and it all feels so meaningless right now.
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I can understand that you feel disappointed by your T. Or maybe even abandoned in a way?
Instead of just "punishing" her for "not caring enough about you" by not showing up next time - have you ever thought about talking to her about how this feels for you and why? If you cannot imagine doing this, what stops you?
Ultimately, by not showing up you are probably hurting yourself much more and the message this is supposed (I'm assuming here...) to get across to your T might not even register with her. So telling her directly how you feel about this situation might be an alternative way of dealing with your disappointment and hurt. Or you could write her a letter /e-mail if you find talking about it too difficult...
Sending you warm and safe hugs.
c_r