I've only been attracted to someone twice in my entire life. Once around age 40 and once just recently at age 54. Both attractions were the result of close friendships (of which I've had many) which grew in my heart because we got closer and I realized that that person was also growing closer to me and was developing a relationship interest in me.

However both times as sure as I was that I was getting physical and emotional signs of interest... Both times I was completely wrong and when I tried to move further in the relationship I was rejected.

I have a zero batting average but only two attempts... Like Clara said lack of practice is obviously a factor... but at age 54 with deteriorating physical health and deteriorating mental health I can't see mysefl continuing to try let alone that I would have another opportunity. For an opportunity to come again I would have to find someone else to develop a close friendship with and I don't meet many people any more. The past ten years of making an exhausting effort to meet people only yielded these two possibilities for me. People just aren't attracted to me for whatever reason.