I don't find you repulsive. I don't find people in general repulsive, just the idea of making friends, having a conversation.

That wasn't me that wrote that but sounds a bit like me. The further I dig the more it seems that most PD's are meaningless labels. The cluster B PD's seem like they would have a lot more meaning than avoidant or even schizoid.

Left alone, I am happy in my solitude and just as happy with my kids and grandkids being around. Well, happy is extremely relative, I haven't been truly happy or feeling satisfied in years. Even getting my two degrees gave me no sense of accomplishment.

I don't feel lonely, ever. I just suck I guess.