i had so many friends in my youth and in my teens. i had so much fun.i also was very lonely sometimes even being with friends. i would feel actually sick from people like i was allergic from them. then in my late 20s i had a son. i never felt the severity of depression as bad as i had with post partum depression after having a child. my whole life changed, less friends and a bossy partner i'll call my sons dad. i was hypo because he kept egging me on about everything. maybe you have to deal with people who are toxic to your personality? to this day i wish i hadn't lost my friends. people have to accept us the way we are but can also help us on the way. we need to build each other up.