I'm so down today that I wish I could just be dead and get life over with. I'm scaring myself with my thoughts. I don't want to do anything stupid but I'm so depressed I almost can't stand it anymore. I want to be out of this life, I'm sick of the depression and all that goes with it. I'm scared I want make it sometimes. I keep trying to get better but it all comes back again. I wonder if I will make it through this. I wonder if I want to make it throgh this anymore. I just want it all to end. I'm scare of mysely.