Hello Yoda. I am sorry for your suffering and your isolation at this time. I would highly suggest seeing a therapist and getting a case manager that can help you get someone in to help you clean your house. Getting a timer and setting the timer for 15 minutes and working for 15 minutes helps many people because it helps to see progress even though it seems slow it makes a great difference to see something getting done. Perhaps calling a good friend or family member to help you clean up will help, I dont think that you and your home are beyond help all you need is someone to help you get motivated and possibly on the right medication to help you get started. Get a timer and set it for 15 minutes and you will hopefully see a difference soon in how things are when you are actually doing instead of worrying about things not getting done. Writing a list of where to start and what needs to get done helps as well. Perhaps your son can help you get things done so you can feel less stressed. Take care of yourself. Soidhonia