thank you...
sometimes i cant put words into existence to communicate anything...
so its easier to just look through these pictures and let other people put it into words for me...

i hate being weak... just want it to stop so i can help other people feel better...

just so confused...

sorry for being so depressing...

i dont have anywhere else to go...

hopefully before the end of the year i can start therapy...

even though my religious beliefs have been destroyed... and my faith in existence of a higher supreme being or god is shaken... im praying that this ssdi goes through so i can get help...
thats all im thinking about... if this fails... how can i live like this any longer ...
i just cant handle much more.... walking on coals, glass, eggshells, blablabla....
i am cracked in every angle and about to shatter to an incomprehensible amount of pieces that would be impossible to reconstruct...

why does such an illness exist... it is a self destructing malady...

i wish i was stronger...