those that know today was the day ... she got everything ... I healt "nothing back" ... god I love her ... I now , with her help , am finally accepting who and "what" I am ... and that it is ok ... I'm different , you guys already knew that , but it is ok ... this is just who I am ... for now and forever ... She has agreed to keep me safe , even with my "plan" and the wife is coming into therapy soon ... unless my T gets hit by a bus I am for the first time in years seeing hope ... and it feels good.. like warm sunshine on a cold day ...

I am sorry if your having a bad day ... not meaning to seen so pollyanna , but if I don't tell someone my head will explode ...