(((BREE)))> I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. Can you get time off once a month to go see a therapist it is really in your best interest to keep seeing someone to be able to express yourself when you are not feeling well and grounded. Maybe your job would give you time off if you told them you needed time off for a Drs Appointment and so forth or come in later in the day after the appointment. I hope things get better for you soon. Take care. soidhonia