Hi Jeff,

You do well to channel your need into the search for productive enterprises. My lifelong Depression has had me feeling like this, and I have chased - something? - with both totally self-destructive and positive behaviours. Neither have a satisfying outcome, but the positive behaviour, by definition, doesn't damage you further physically and mentally.

Many try, and benefit from, Therapy. I have been badly betrayed by Psychologists I trusted, so it is not an option for me, but I can see the help it brings to people when they find a good T. A combination of Therapy and ADs can be very effective in producing answers, more than either on it's own.

I am sorry you have this feeling, this need, but while it is driving you to make positive choices I would not let it overwhelm you. You have plenty of time to work things out while you are accumulating new skills.

Dave.