Hello jefflongssj: I see this is your first post here on PC... so... welcome to PsychCentral... from the Skeezyks! May you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

Yes, I can relate to this. I'm an older person. And it makes me cringe to think of all of the money I spent over the years trying to fill the void within. Unfortunately I didn't experience much career success nor did I develop much of anything in the way of skills.

I am married. But beyond that I am completely solitary, by choice. (No good has ever resulted from me having anything to do with anyone, in real life.) I still feel that emptiness within that caused me to spend so much money in years past. And although I am solitary by choice, my solitude sometimes exacerbates that feeling of emptiness. As a result, I have had to learn to simply embrace the feeling, to breathe into it & essentially float within it much as if I were floating in calm water.