I disappeared without telling anyone. I'm sorry. I just don't know what's up with me.

For everyone who saw my post a while ago, I changed rooms, and lost my (then) current roomate who I've been with for two years. Then two weekends ago I got my new roommate, who is really nice but that I don't see much of. Kinda hard to get used to living in this new place with a new person. I'm not a fan of change.

Also made the call to the abuse centre which my current T has basically referred me to for further counselling (on top of still seeing him - if he dropped me, I'd probably cry). Still waiting to hear back from them about my first appointment. Where I'm going to get the money for this is beyond me... I can't go through insurance, since my family CANNOT find out.

Also classes started yesterday and my first class was early this morning so I've been stressing out about that. Way more students around campus, and so very very loud. Haven't bought all the books yet, but the classes are at least the ones I actually want. Still haven't found where I'm getting money to pay for tuition or residence... but one problem at at a time...

Trying to volunteer at my school chaplaincy (which I do a lot of) and starting to participate again and plan stuff for the few groups I'm a part of. So stressed about that, you have no idea.

Best part - I had BAD heartburn and acid reflux for 48 hours straight that I couldn't cure with ANY over the counter drugs my pharmacist recommended. Stress does weird things to me... is it bad that I'm just waiting for my hair to fall out again? Now the heartburn is gone (thankfully) as of this morning when I woke up, but I started a bad headache yesterday and it's still kicking around today ... so that's basically a 24 hour headache so far.

Then there are some issues with the administration here at my university that is causing all sorts of issues and delays for students, which is quite upsetting.

I'm being all-around cranky and not being a very nice person to any of my friends - even though it is nice to see them all again.

... and as a result of the administration problem here at university, I haven't been able to book an appt with my T yet for next week. And I REALLY want to see him. And he told me that he's only going to be able to see me every 2-3 weeks now because of the all the other students on campus.



And my family isn't talking to me for some reason. And my sister who was out here visiting the family for over a week - she only came to visit when they were helping me move. Now I don't get to see her until Christmas.

And it's hot. And I'm having wheelchair maintenance issues (I use a manual one). And I have a doctor's appointment on Monday for an ultrasound and I DONT WANT TO GO. I miss my first class because of it and they can't reschedule to any day besides Mondays all semester.

So to sum it up:

Christina apologizes profusely for not being around. She's sorry she's not supportive. She's sorry she's only been able to (barely) keep on top of reading any of the posts and hasn't responded to any because she's not sure how to be supportive. She feels crappy, life is too stressful and she feels like she's losing her mind.

She loves you all very dearly and wants everyone to know that but if you want to reach her for the next few days the best bet would be to send her a PM.

((((((((((((Everyone))))))))))))))

And she's having a weird habit of talking about herself in 3rd person.

I will now step off my soap box and you can continue with your regularily scheduled programming.

Thanks for letting me vent.