Wish I could say the same. Much of the time I do... I mean I am going to therapy and trying this new antidepressant and I hadn't been taking my medications but now I'm back on top of them and I'm seeing the cardiologist...

But much of the time I don't want to keep struggling like this any more along with all of the pain and I just don't think that this time around the struggle is worth it again. The last time I fought this I ended up... right back here after ten years with no real "up time" in between... nothing really positive in my life that I can look at and want to grab hold of for inspiration to keep fighting.