Enjoy the feeling but definitely keep an eye on things. Watch your sleep patterns and ask someone you TRUST to keep an eye on you.
Here is my typical experience when taking an activating AD. I feel great! My physical health feels improved! Less pain and I have more motivation than usual. I feel jittery, my heart races but I'm not anxious in a nervous sense, more an exited sense. Self esteem is drastically improved. A few days pass and I'm sleeping very little. I feel pressured to TALK to people. I will go out and meet strangers in a dark alley if that's what it takes. I need to have conversations, and my speech will also become extremely pressured. I will begin to make odd choices but will easily rationalize them. I feel GOOD. I advertise to the world that everyone should take an anti depressant! It makes you super human! I'm living proof! I can see colors I didn't know exsisted! The world looks brighter, and beautiful and we are all connected and I can see the connection with my own eyes and I am in love with everyone and everything! I'm not really sleeping at all and I feel light headed and dizzy but still so, so excited and pressured to move and to talk and to do new things! Then something happens and I start to get paranoid. People are looking at me strange. These people are up to something! They are evil! I've seen the truth about them and their dark souls and evil intent. They are out to get me!!!! They all are and have been all my life!!! I recognize they've been following me all my life persecuting me. I catch them on video and consider reporting it but I realize this goes up to the FBI. I am part of a study being conducted on psychological torture. They are watching me and enjoying my pain. They are doing it because I am psychic and can see the truth about them. They are afraid I will spread the message to the general population and they cannot have this I feel physically ill. Like I'm coming down from something. Still jittery but now it's clearly anxiety. I recall my recent behaviors and something CLICKS. My mind races for days over these things. I'm obviously terrible and deserve to suffer. And things only get worse from there. This is a very common pattern for me and sadly can happen regardless if it's AD induced or not. But certain AD's make it a sure thing. Now that I understand my patterns and have safety measures in place, I'm able to recognize when I'm thinking differently. So I have "some" insight. I feel it's important for someone to watch me though. That is why I recommend you have someone you TRUST watch you. Is that possible? I guess my point is, be careful.... Things can get ugly.
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