I don't remember if I wrote about this, but my mind led me back to this topic (and the old, outside post that started it. How the person who made that post I referenced later explained that people who self-hate would rather be taken care of than improve themselves, fix their problems. Then again, this is someone whose response towards someone taking too long to fix their psychological issues is "Move faster" and "Get over it already". The sort who finds most people weak, stupid, and overemotional.

But the most painful advice, that I've heard from multiple sources, is to just fix it. You hate yourself? Start accomplishing things and you'll stop. Feel useless and worthless? Learn new skills and you won't be useless anymore? Weak? Kill off your emotions, or at least shut them off and stop being such a little *****. Ugly? Start working out. Any of this instead of crying about it.

What only makes me more furious and disgusted is I can't imagine a life without self-hate. It's practically incomprehensible. And horrifying in its emptiness. With nothing to overcome, what's the point of living? If you're perfect, there's nothing left to do. True, it isn't productive to sit in bed, watching anime to block out and forget all the stuff you hate about yourself. It's frustratingly unproductive. But at least I have thoughts. If I perfected myself I wouldn't have any thoughts or feelings left. I'd basically be dead. At least now I have a semblance of being alive.