i wrote a few post about somet things... but i dunno about posting stuff about religion...
dont want to say anything wrong... i just keep deleting them so im just not gonna say much... not that i would intentionally offend anyone... or really have anything to say that probably would offend anyone.. cause i am spiritual... i just try not to label myself anymore... just for info though my mother was a preacher before i was born and till i was like 4 years... pentecostal... raised christian and all... so i've tried to educate myself as much as possible ... to answer my questions... before i just stopped claiming anything... but im not gonna go into that because maybe its not appropriate...

sometimes people in the church can call us out and expect us to be honest but not realizing that its not really something so easy to really talk about...
thinking that we are just having a struggle at the time, not realizing that its a life thing that we are realy dealing with and not just a hiccup...

not saying its a bad thing... just that its uncomfortable...

if its appropriate i'll share my last experience in the church, because i went to the altar and tried to ask for guidance but what i received confused me more than anything...

anyway..
i know how it feels...
sometimes they just want to help... sometimes they dont realize the things they say and do can make us feel worse though even though they genuinely mean well...

trying not to say anything wrong...
its just not easy even though they want to help...

well.. since i keep deleting all of my message... just going to say i know how you feel... supposed to be comfortable in house of god but... sometimes you feel most vulnerable there...

much love...
its hard for me to talk about religion because i dont want to offend anyone... as im dark and disturbed anymore...
sorry they made you feel like that... i know that feeling...