I stare at my feet and think about how much I would like to just sink through the floor.

I generally feel uneasy in my sessions, though. I have to force myself to make eye contact with my therapists, especially with my uni therapist. I really can't look at her most of the time, because she makes me feel extremely vulnerable. The way I feel about her makes me also feel small and helpless, full of emotions that scare me, that I don't know what to do with. So I will look down, or stare at the walls, and sometimes I'll play with my hair or something. Maybe I should try to talk about it, or face it somehow (hah!), but that's a terrifying thought, lol.