Yeah maybe it is just really bad anxiety. Hopefully this new psychiatrist can help me out with whatever it is. And it's okay about my parents. They are supportive when it comes to helping me out with paying for the doctors and medications but they are strong believers that mental illness as a whole is a sham and that I actually just need to take more vitamins or drink more water or something. It's hard to connect with them when they think I don't have my life together on purpose. If it was for attention I doubt I could keep this up for however many years I've had all these problems. Sorry for the rant lol.