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Old Mar 26, 2016, 08:53 AM
tearsinabottle tearsinabottle is offline
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Originally Posted by omegalamed View Post
Only you can decide what is right for you. Perhaps it is closure that you so badly needing for the healing process? You do what you feel is right for you, either choice is okay. tc
Ok, thank you, omegalamed. I feel a need to talk with him and see him. I just hope it can be something good coming out from it and that he is grown now and knows to treat me right.

I got the chance to ask him if he did drug me down, as he started talk about how much I remember from that day. He avoided the question and seemed to somehow be excited about what happened down there. He asked me how much I remember from the time we drove to his friends house and up to that bungalow where I am sure he drugged me down. He didnt seem to understand I have been scared ( if I was ) and didnt give any reassurance to not worry about what happened and I was only 15. Instead he could assure me it was nice and wild. He didnt understand either why I cant remember it. I dont know if he is lying or not.

Telling me he is so happy to have found me. I said I am so happy to talk with him again. Some of the things he said makes me question his character, now as a grown man. I have met a couple sociopaths so I am aware of red flags.

Still, despite this all, I still feel the wish to see him and talk with him. I read on a website that sometimes a victim of rape return to their rapist to downplay what happened, to make believe what happened wasnt that bad and that the relationship could have been continued.

I may feel I fit in that description or situation. I understand that I have never healed from this as he was my first.

Last edited by tearsinabottle; Mar 26, 2016 at 09:08 AM.