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Originally Posted by littleowl2006
Ok so there obviously is something to learn from every situation and people say especially from the bad ones I have to learn what needs to change. In my head it all makes sense.
But I feel that I have some reluctance in me to just change things. I feel like there could be someone jumping out from a hiding spot saying "You think you can just change and do better? Don't be ridiculous. You have been like that and you can't change because you are incapable."
It's a feeling I always had. Whenever I think about letting something go or changing my patterns, I become afraid of that creature telling me I am not good enough or don't have the right to fool the world into thinking I wasn't completely rotten on the inside.
Anyone's thoughts would be great. It's the first time I have been able to put this into words, I guess my therapy IS working in spite of all the doubts I have.
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It's a process, identifying your fears that hold you back. There is so much more to learn about this, and I trust you and your analyst are talking about this? It is so important and applies to so many areas of our lives that it is something to analyze in many sessions. It's interesting to be helped to see each situation where fears pop up - an internal effort to protect ourselves, keep ourselves safe.
I can relate to the fears expressed as internal thoughts in your post. We don't have to believe what we tell ourselves
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