Yeah, plan is to go to the doctor on monday if I can find a way there. They did test my bp and it was fine last time. But then, I have had these symptoms ever since I started having severe panic attacks and generalized anxiety in 2003.

I also think alot of it has to do with no longer being on meds, since they pulled me off everything when I became pregnant. As much as I hate to say it, those pills I took really kept me even and without them everything is flaring back up.

And speaking of being pregnant, I now feel like I have to constantly hide my mental problems from others in case they then assume that because I have issues I will be a bad mother! I almost feel like I no longer have the right to have a mental illness, though I know that is not true.

Fresh air does sound lovely, but Im too nervous to leave the apartment at the moment. I did open all the windows though, got some cold water, and did some breathing excersises and am feeling a little bit better.. The shaking is gone at least and I feel less *feeling of doom-like* which is good.