Well, since I read research about the disorder of hiddenist being multiple....Someone created the illusion that they knew about my research and decided to f' me over because I'm rather proper and fit to form being a system that subscribes to disorder of hiddenist, very calm in most cases...I regret my begginings, cause they wouldn't rest with the control of people so that it show a few time in a few years publicly instead of in a moment of privacy every 5 or 6 six years.....So yea, I felt forced without a choice if not I would continued to be trapped and ran over when the choice was everyone's....Its the danger when you get involved with toxic people without knowing that from the beginning...I blame the research I read, the people I got involved with, where it happened publicly, and myselves.....The only thing you can do now at this point is try to do some sort of damage control at work to keep your rep.....