I'm trying to imagine how I can be content to survive in the life I have and possibly continue to improve it if I should successfully battle this depression. All I have going is a job and this current mess is screwing that up, my ability to relate to my coworkers. And the depression isn't going to be a short battle. I don't know what will be left for me if and when I emerge. Last time it devastated my entire worklife and it took me a year to find a new job. I can't even imagine where I would look for a new job at my age with my skillset if it should come to that. Hopefully it won't. I know they are behind me and I won't lose my job but I don't know if my ability to work there will be compromised... That's what happened at my last job. I tried to go back after coming out of the hospital but it just didn't work.