thanks... i kind of feel like this alot
when ever i get a new pdoc / therapist im going to try to talk about it and hopefully get an answer to whats going on...

i was reading about dissociation... and depersonalization disorder...
cause it seems to be a constant in and out for me... i just used to be high and drunk all the time when i was younger... so now that im sober more often now i can really feel things more... well ... not feel, but see...

some might say the drugs and alcohol maybe messed my mind up... but the truth is i've been doing this since i was really young... just started getting intoxicated at 13 yearsold to try to cope i guess... but trying to get sober more now... i just hard to see a reason to be sober when you hurt alot ya know...

but its ok... im used to it...

thanks for caring