another update; told my pastor about contacting D on facebook and his lack of response. My pastor said D is losing his job at the end of June, and is depressed about moving. So my pastor said not to worry about this, and that D asked him a lot of questions about me. Also, my pastor said D agreed to meet me, along with my pastor, in June or July (no date set yet).

Now what do I do? Pastor T told me not to mention D's job loss to anyone, so I can't say anything to D about this. And I also feel sad, that even if I meet D, nothing will ever happen. I have been taking Tylenol to try to calm down because I am upset; I feel like nothing ever works out for me with relationships and I am so tired of life and problems and don't know what to do anymore. Thank you for letting me vent and sorry to be so down.