Sheila: I'm sorry you all...I'm like toxic and anti healing. I've spent most of my time trying to connect, but we've always have been taken the wrong way since forever. (Oooze drama. Lol Steve)

We are like stuck...can't get public help, private, or social....we must just keep blazing our own path and dealing with time as it happens.

As a system, We can't help to feel totally unbelievable, misunderstood or unacceptable for being...anywhere. We are often made to backtrack, make up for, and apologize for stuff we never did or isn't us that we wouldn't ever do on a daily basis. This is so dehumanizing....but somehow we have the desire to continue, even though most of us can't bare this.

I never asked for this....I want to be a rock star, a designer, an engineer, a mother, a nurse....but no I'm stuck battling me and the universe.

I wish that I can offer more than I can...but until I can, I can not.

The best that I can hope for is to live unembarrassed for a day. Just one day.