Thanks for your explanation Mouse. It was helpful to read your reply and be able to realise that your remark was actually a soundbite with a backstory that I wasn't aware of. I'm pleased you had a mantra that was helpful to you during your very dark times. In many ways, I have always kept trying with different therapists and professionals because I have had hope that one day, somehow, if I just work hard enough at it then it'll become less painful. But being years down the line, with a voice screaming just as loud as it always has, I become exhausted a lot quicker now. I think that is the main difference for me. I'm a hard worker, but I am really, very tired. It takes less to push me down these days. Perhaps I need a mantra that can counter the screaming in my head. I wish there was one loud enough to stop it completely - even if just for a week. I'd take that right now. Thanks again for your explanation, I appreciate you taking the time to help me understand that what you wrote was said with kindness and in order to support me.