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Originally Posted by beautifulbutterfly1
Although I am functional, I still think I am bipolar because my mood swings slightly sometimes. I will be depressed one week and then the next day completely fine. Also I have had crises when I have been suicidal(but never actually attempted suicide) as well as wanting to cut. Also seven years ago major depressive episode where I was slightly psychotic. But aside for that one time being delusional while severely depressed the psychotic features never came back.
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I'm obviously no doctor, but I can give you my opinion if it helps.
I think it's worth reading about psychotic depression:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychotic_depression
You didn't mention anything to me that suggests you experience upswings. You may indeed experience upswings, but you mostly mentioned things that sound like major depression and psychotic depression, both of which can be experienced with Major Depressive Disorder. You don't have to be bipolar to experience psychotic depression.
Have you ever had periods of time where you were so happy or so angry that you weren't yourself? Like driving 95mph on the highway zig-zagging around cars, or impulsively spending $600 on a new guitar that you have no idea how to play and no intentions to play? (Those are 2 examples of things I've done.) Have you experienced a period of time where you got less sleep than usual without feeling tired (e.g., 0-4 hours of sleep a night)? Have you experienced an increase in goal-directed activity (e.g., suddenly cleaning your entire house, taking on more tasks at work than you can handle, etc.)?
You don't have to have every one of those symptoms to be considered hypomanic or manic. I'm just trying to give you examples.