Wandering, I choose to be alone, but I'm probably much older than you. I cherish my quiet time and solitude. I can DO anything I want, ignore chores if I want, take a walk if I choose to, work if I want to, or not. It's precious! After years of striving for a magic relationship which led to a lot of grief, I finally decided to try something different. I will share with you that the most rewarding thing I did was go back to school. If this is an option for you, I highly recommend it. Taking classes gets you out of your own head, plus, you are learning something new! It's very fulfilling and gives you a feeling of accomplishment and increase of self-esteem.