Hi
I feel lost right now. I got my disability last April but don't qualify for medical till Dec 07. I tried a clinic that accepted me but they changed their pdocs and therapists four times in as many months. I just quit that 4 week ago and the med have gotten totally out of my system now. I am sleeping 2 to 3 hours at a clip. I know this is sending me into a deep hole. I have to hold on till Dec. This is not going to be easy. Even though I was dx as bipolar I don't think it is right. I just go form one depression to another. I was put on lamictal and experience my one and only manic period. That lasted 2 months until I told the pdoc about the rash then he promptly took me off the drug. I crashed hard became suicidal and have not recovered since. That was in Jun. and July of 06. Nothing seemed to work since then. I just went off prozac and seroquel. Which did not help at all. I have lost hope that there is a med that will help me. I have been on so many meds since May 2004, been hospitalized twice. I just wish I was dead. Depression is a hideous disorder it robs you of everything. With no medical since July 2005 I have had to go cold turkey 3 times and each time I get scared and suicidal. I hope the later wins this time.