I also have maternal and erotic transference. It's very confusing because there are so many underlying emotions and desires that I have for t. My transference has changed to negative transference lately. It depends on how our relationship is and what is happening in that. During my last session after t had said something which was very blaming and hurtful to me, she asked what happened as I looked at her. I didn't tell her the truth because I wanted to punch her in the face but instead I said nothing. This infuriates her and she gets angry. When my t was kind and compassionate at the start I had strong maternal and erotic transference. Now that she is a raging b**** most of the time I have begun to hate her. Transference is fluid like all feelings and never static. I really miss the feelings I used to have for her even though they were very painful at times. I longed to be her daughter / partner whatever she needed I would have been. I agree that some transference feelings can remind us of a situation or event from the past but these feelings I have are situational created by our relationship together.
I do believe that had I of gotten the love I needed and wanted off my own mother I would not lust after my t and older women so much!
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