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Old Mar 27, 2016, 07:29 PM
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Originally Posted by Miktis25 View Post
I'm curious, I can't remember you mentioning it, are you yourself autistic, Icare dixit?
No I am not. I am bipolar myself. However, my father is to such extent (not really on the spectrum: luckily for him he has manageable anxiety, it has only affected others through his behaviour but not really so that he himself suffers or has severe problems) that he taught me to be very rational and rigorous, which is very different from "unaffected"/natural BP. Of course, underlyingly I very much am, but I try to offset these problems with things you are generally naturally good at.

Hope that answers your question.

Edit:
BP is just never fully "unaffected", for no-one: anxiety causes very creative and fast reasoning, but not very rigorous.

Another edit (yes I tend to do that and this is gonna be long! I am always a bit "manic", schizomanic and on not too many meds, please read further):
More specifically, I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type. Or: schizomania.

I am a psycholinguist.

I live at the crossroads of BP and schizophrenia, I work at the crossroads of the humanities and liberal arts, and the sciences, BP and ASD.

Schizomania and ASD are sometimes very difficult to distinguish. That's why I created/develop this questionnaire (together with anyone who wants comes up with questions or wants to give predictions or personal answers).

Schizomania may be mistaken for ASD, autism for schizophrenia, and vice versa, respectively.

Delusions may be mistaken for an autistic perspective, pervasive interests for goal-directed activity, and vice versa, respectively.

More or less clear insight can be mistaken for both a pervasive interest and an autistic perspective and be regarded as a contraindication for a psychotic disorder.

The wrong diagnosis can delay proper treatment by years

Mostly just by lack of rigour in the description of the syndrome in the DSM, schizoaffective disorder can be diagnosed together with autism spectrum disorder. It is literally a combination of the descriptions of bipolar disorder and partially schizophrenia, but arguably too little of the latter.

A related problem is the controversy surrounding both schizoaffective disorder and (even) the dichotomy between bipolar disorder and schizophrenia (the "Kraepelinian dichotomy").

More and more, it becomes clear that there is so much overlap, both syndromal/clinically and genetically/biochemically, that it may be best considered as one category with as of yet unknown differences in expression and foundation.

I have developed a theory which can describe all disorders from ASD at one end of a continuum, through normalcy, the favourite of all disorders, to, what I call, the psychotic spectrum disorder(s).

I have been misdiagnosed with ASD (then PDD NOS).

I lost many chances, have had ideas of ending it or wishes it would end, many times.

What saved me was having enough insight together with a lot of knowledge.

Still I couldn't express myself clearly (this varies and is worst when I need to most, as is common), but my convictions weren't delusional, I kept them during times of depression, and in time I was able to prove it. It kept me going. It kept me alive.

Ironically, not being delusional brought me the treatment I needed, helping me to not be delusional (to the point it impairs my functioning).

But only after far too many years, I got that care.

Many of those with psychotic disorders have great insight—as in intuitively, but don't have the means to express them with the rigour suited to express such intense depth of impressions, many with ASD may have the means to do just that, but lack a suitable, intense, intuitive or emotional insight.

I know this is a lot of explanation for a simple question, but it very much goal-directed activity firstly, interest secondary. I wonder when this "mania" or "episode" ends.

If just one person reads an understands it, I am one step closer to my goal: freedom, acceptance, care and support, for all, basically.
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