It was recommended by my cardiologist a year ago to stop working. I attempted to do so. But because I work (now only part-time) I am unable to get out of the net. I'm going to end up dying and I know it. the stress of life is far too much for me and I can't get any help. I was told 5 years ago by a neuro surgeion after having a ruptured brain aneurysm that I would experience difficulties. He said that I would/may not be able to do my line of work, that I would find it difficult. He was right. I can barely do my job. I am not even doing half of what I use to and my work load is getting the best of me. The mistakes and the time that it takes to get one task done sends me over the edge....daily! I've told my boss that I can't do it and that I need help, but she refuses to listen as do the doctors and family. Not only do I suffer with focus issues, but now depression, bipolar and other health issues. I was told that I have to be unemployed for a year with my condition before they would even consider giving me disability or that I would need a major illness or physical impairment. If I could get away from my job it would be a huge burden lifted off of me, but I can't. I can't just walk away from financial obligations and the means of supporting myself. I have enough common sense to know that would be devastating to me. So what are my choices? My hands are tied and there is but only one way out. I figure when I get to my limit (and I am litterally one step away) I will bow out gracefully. SO what I worked since I was 13 years old and am now 52. So what I've paid thousands into SS and am not able to collect it now that I need the help. So what the system not only has robbed me blind and wont help me, I've already lost hundreds of dollars because I've worked part-time for the last 3 years, and the doctors aren't helping, they confuse me and treat me like a psychopath, and family is tired, don't know what to do or want to do and friends are not even few, their void...... even my spouse is distant. I would be doing myself a great favor and no one will even notice that I'm gone. Besides, I'm tired and in physical and mental pain....how much more can one girl take? She doesn't have to take it...thats the answer.