Yeah i feel you on the upward trend.. In the same boat. At least we've got a rudder and a couple paddles!

I am horrible at analyzing people via internet, partly because i know how easy it is to manipulate your tone, word choice, structure, ect. But buy me a beer and i'd be happy to listen to your life story, offer comfort and encouragement, and then guide you down the path that i deem most beneficial, which is most likely not the correct path for you, but for me!