I notice lots of folks here have great sense of humours. A great coping skill for sure. Glad you made it past a suicide thinking episode. I'm sure like me... while suicide may seem attractive at times... our boys keep us grounded.

My mother suicided and I'd attempted a few times before she'd succeeded. Since my son was born I knew it was no longer an option. You don't get over loosing a parent to suicide. I actually put off mother hood till I was 39 cuz I really didn't expect I'd survive my suicidal thinking. Only once I'd lived 10 years without an attempt did I allow myself to consider motherhood.

I give thanks for my son everyday.... he gives me purpose and he gives me strength to hang on through every up and down of my life.

Take care.... a belly laugh a day is very good medicine. I try to have one with my son at least one a day. A good mental hygiene practise I find.