I first entered therapy for anorexia/bulimia, depression and suicidal ideation.

Five years later, my attitude towards food is very different. I believe that I deserve to nourish myself, whereas in the past, I didn't. My eating disorder symptom use has become rare and has nearly stopped. I don't hate my body anymore.

I'm also not clinically depressed anymore, and I am much better equipped to handle fear, sadness, frustration and anger when they arise. I'm also able to see that emotions are transient, and that they will pass. I'm able to "ride the waves" now, and don't get swamped by my feelings.

I used to be chronically suicidal; I literally could not imagine a world in which I would want to be alive. The fact that other people wanted to be alive kind of blew my mind. Today, I'm not suicidal at all, and haven't been for about 2 years.

I genuinely like myself, and am generally content in life. When I have a tough moment, I am able to weather it, to reach out for support, and to take care of myself with compassion.

I never thought that all of this would be possible. When I first entered therapy, I was so sick with the eating disorder, so depressed and so deeply suicidal that I couldn't see a way out of any of it. I attribute all the change to a combination of therapy and medication. I know that there is still a lot of room for improvement, but I've definitely come a long way.

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