Hi Fall,

It sounds like you're going through a really tough time right now, and reading back on your posts you haven't got much support IRL with the way you're feeling I'm sorry
But it is good that you've come to PC, there are going to be a lot of people on here who can empathise with the way you're feeling and can offer you some of the support you've been missing. Some people who are where you are right now, some people working through it, some people who have come out the other side.........but please hang in there with us and give us a chance to try to help
Maybe you could tell us a bit more about your circumstances.........what's going on for you........the way you're feeling..........whatever you want to talk about...........we're here for for you

Alison