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Originally Posted by divine1966
Would you consider meeting with therapist or other professional prior to seeing this man. If he was capable of rape then, he is capable now. You know it's not something any decent men would ever do at any age, right?
Have you ever receive psychological help to properly heal? Or figure out why exactly you want to see him.
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I have been thinking for a long time to talk to a therapist. I contacted three different therapists, but all of them had no time. I had to put myself up on waiting list, but I didnt do that. Sometimes I lack motivation and then it slips my mind and nothing gets done. Sometimes I think a therapist cant help me. I read others say they have gotten help so it must be just me who think I cant be helped. Sometimes it feels better to not bring pain up and avoid talking about it. Maybe I should try give it a chance again, to talk to a therapist. Because the trauma I did go through down there with his sister and all that happened has left hurt in me.
Maybe he is capable of rape. I know it wasnt decent what he did. I am thinking some can change and grow. Maybe its wishful thinking as I wish he now would care for me. I dont want to think about what he did, I want to push it aside. I wish I now would get care and love from him. I feel very vulnerable and I am actually scared he will leave my life again. Maybe I am sick who wants to be with him and see him. If he left my life I would feel one more loss, the biggest except for my brother and mother.