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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
I wont pretend to understand, at all... But I would just like to leave you with a thought.
You've given him ample chance to admit to what he did, to apologize for what he did, to even make excuses for what he did, but he hasn't. He has avoided the issue.
You think you may get closure out of meeting with him, but it probably wont be the type of closure you seek, and wont be wrapped up with a neat pretty little bow.
What if he responds in an undesirable manner?
How will you react, will that re-traumatize you?
Think about how this will affect you when it does not go according to plan, before you decide to go.
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Yes, I did give him the chance to admit to what happened and he avoided admitting if he drugged me down. He admitted he took my virginity ( without directly saying so ), but this I know because when I woke up on the bed I saw blood. He stood in the room. Either he drugged me down or I have been so scared that I have blocked it out.
Maybe it wont be what I need, to see him. I have a wish he would care for me because he say so many good things that feels good to me. I will admit I feel very vulnerable and scared of him not being what I want him to be and that he will disappear from my life again. I am trying to put my feelings down, to cool off, so I wont get hurt and feel broken.