So I had a decent two weeks of feeling good, but no motivation to do anything for myself, but still able to get up and do what's necessary. I had seen my pdoc earlier in March and we left the dose of Lamictal at 200 since I seemed to be ok at that time. Vitamin D was added about a week ago after my bloodwork came back that is was (extremely) low. I felt ok...until Thursday night that is. The funny thing is I wrote her Thursday afternoon about how great things were going. Friday I was overwhelmed with work. I barely got the minimum done. I slept all weekend. I cried. There were so many things I wanted to do. That I needed to do. But I just couldn't. I stayed in bed. And went five days without a shower.
Last night I felt ok and today I'm able to put on the mask at work and pretend everything is normal, but...I can't with this up and down nonsense. Two weeks good, one week bad and so on and so forth.
My pdoc wrote me back on Friday stating that she is glad everything is working out well. But I'm just so irritated by this. I'm not sure if this is a therapy issue or a med issue. But there is nothing I can think of that is wrong. Sure I received a bunch of hospital bills recently, but I did the math and I'm fine. So that's not a huge worry. Other than that...I have no idea. If so, it is repressed very deep. I try and wait a few days before bothering my doctor to see if the episode passes. But I'm so tired. I can't with these mood shifts so often anymore. I'm so tired.
Should I bother my pdoc again? Or try and ride it out a few days?