I thought about it for the last few years, but never had the courage to leave. Nine months ago I suddenly decided it was about time.
My ex is a good guy and I still love him, he didn't cheat on me and I didn't cheat on him, but our marriage was completely dead, I couldn't breathe anymore. He was devastated by my decision, although he could understand. I feel so guilty. I also feel very lonely, I don't have any real friends, at the same time I feel so much more alive.