was recently diagnosed as severe mdd recurrent without psychotic features...
been dealing with depression my whole life, since i was able to walk, literally...
i had about a year where i couldn't feel anything, i dont remember any of it either, because i was on a lot of drugs that doped me up beyond what i thought a doctor would dope me...

its hard dealing with depression, it takes certain aspects of ourselves and mangles it... twists and corrupts our view of ourselves...

you are still the same person... its just that you are deeply upset...
we have to try to work through the hurt and get to our true selves...

its a war... but wars can be won...

keep fighting... educate yourself as much as possible..